Love Song

Waking up every morning with you on my mind
Has made me realize how important you are to me
Being the lover that I am
Will give you all my love
The compassion, the romance and the physical part of our relationship
Brought in new experiences that I love sharing with you
Understanding each other was hard at first
But once I heard your love song
You became apart of me
Deep down inside I was scared
Scared to fall too deep into something that I wasn't ready for
But you freed me from being scared
Once I opened my heart to you
I saw the world clearer
I used to hate when you left my presences
Now
This distances has made us stronger in the most unusual way
I can't explain how I feel when I'm near you
There's so much that my mind and body goes through from just your touch
Im your knight and shining armor
Your my heart and my world
With your love song on repeat
I feel invincible and powerful
My favorite verse from your song is
Love me now and I'll love you till the end of the world
Your not perfect but I know your love is real
Plays daily in my heart

Dear Queen

To my sweet queen

You mean the world to me

I can't tell you how much I love you 

There's no measurement to the amount of love I have for you

Your beauty is one of a kind

Looking at you makes the world seem more alive

Making our love frame a picture perfect

Me and your colors create art together

Kissing you takes my breath away

Having my body tingle all over

You treat me as your king

Catering to me when I need you the most

Sitting there listening when I need is a listener

The more we're around each other, the more I fall for you

Giving you my all plus more

Equals my unconditional love for you

Anything you want and need

I'll have it as fast as I can

As time moves forward

Our love grows pass the worlds limits

Above the stars to the next galaxy 

Your my queen

I'm your king

Lets make this love story 

A never ending one

Only Human

I'm only human

I have made my mistakes in life

We all have

Trying to understand the world can be difficult

Learning what's important in life takes time

Knowing what's right and what's wrong

Which road to take when I'm standing at a cross-road

I stand there thinking

Trying to decide on which way to go

I've been told to never go backwards 

So I should keep moving forward

I don't want to be filled with pain, anger or stress

Just happiness

Looking for the positive things in life

Overcoming every obstacles that comes my way

Strategizing my next move so I wont fail

I'm learning being patient is the key

Loving who I am and who I will become

Still slowly adapting to the change

Leaving the past in the past

Waiting patiently for my future

I still have a lot to learn and some more mistakes to make

I'm not perfect and nobody is

Because we're all just human

First Week Down

Coming back to ECU for my final semester has already pushing me to work hard. I can honestly say that Economics is a good fit for me and I understand what my professors be talking about. (sometimes) But something happened to me that hasn't happen to me since freshman year. Monday afternoon is my first class of the day and I was super excited. I walked to class bumping my R&B music feeling good. When I arrived to the classroom, I walked in and it was the wrong class. I had a feeling it was because I was in a class where my friend is trying to be a doctor but I played it cool. I sat down and the teacher said "hello, did you just add this class." I smiled and said I think so knowingly I was in the wrong class. I checked my class schedule on my phone and I was in the wrong one. Everyone in there had the same major except me. I acted like nothing was wrong so I sat there for 10 minutes until I decided to get up. I smiled at everyone and told them to have a good day. When I opened the door I heard everyone laughing at me. I just shook my head and started laughing too. Great way to start off my year.

I see a lot of people excited about graduating in May. Honestly, I will miss the great old college experience. Well here at least but I love ECU. I had did this for the things for the first time and learned a lot about myself. Having motivating friends that have goals in their lives are hard to find. I'm glad I found them while I was in college. Making it to college has been a blessing. Only faith and the love I have for God has me motivated to do more. I want to better myself more not just by the knowledge but as a better person. I have my flaws and I'm not perfect but I try to be the greatest person by my actions. I'm determined to live my life to the fullest and trying to live without no regrets. The love and support from friends and family has been amazing and I can thank God for the people he put in my life.

Time is ticking and it's not slowing down. May will be here in a matter of months. Live your life to the fullest while you can because after college..... IT GET'S REAL

Keep Pushing Yourself

The start of 2012 has changed me already. I've been reading my first book in a long time called "How To Get Out Of Your Own Way" by Tyrese Gibson. I'm only on the 2nd chapter and I can feel the change in myself already. His book talks about always staying positive in life and loving yourself. If you know what you want in life and your spirit is positive, you will push yourself past your limit. I'm understanding things more about myself and the more I read, the more I am changing for the better. It's like I want to do more with my life. I just don't want to stop with a 4 year college degree, I want to achieve higher. I'm thinking about going to graduate school for MIS. If you know me you'll know that I really didn't like school. But for some reason I do now. Reading this book has influenced me to want to learn more. I don't want to know everything but I want to understand things. I've became more ambitious about life and learning. I also changed the way I think and live my life.

I love everything about technology. The more things are invented, the more I want to learn about them. Technology has really impact my life in a way that most people don't understand. For instance, if there is a problem with a computer I will sit there till I fix it. I hate to give up on things that I know I can fix. I don't believe in giving up on anything. I like to help people if they cannot solve a problem. Life is so much better when you help people in need. The key to pushing yourself is believing in yourself. If you keep thinking positive and tell yourself you can do it your mind will make you do it. It all starts with you pushing your mind with positive thoughts and your body will follow. I can see myself as a CEO of a company, successful, and happy. When the time comes to be a husband and a father, I want to be financially stable to take care of things.

So learn who you are and want to become. With God on your side anything is possible so keep your spirit high and positive. Surround yourself around positive people so it will rub on you also. Push yourself past your limit to find a new satisfying life. If you think you can, you will and keep God first.

Game of Love

I woke up early this morning thinking about love. Why...because I love to love. Understanding what love is can be difficult to some people but to me I think it's natural. I was raised around people who loved me for who I am. Being around positive people can impact your life in so many way's. I'm a young man who enjoy's life and everything that it has to offer. Love make's me feel good inside no matter who its from or how I show love to other's. Being in a 6 year relationship has taught me a thing or two about real love. I can't lie, I have done some crazy thing's during my relationship days. Love will make you do that sometimes. But I show my love in so many different ways. I am a giver and supporter. If I have it I'll share it and if I could i'll give you my last. I enjoy doing that for people who I think deserves it. Not everyone is going to receive your love the right way. Some people take advantage of your love because they know you will do it no matter what. I have ran into that a few times but its a learning lesson in life. Most people try to find that "PERFECT" love but there's no such thing. Love come in different shapes and forms but how you show it is the most important thing.

Love is like a game sometimes. You have to roll an imaginary dice to count how many steps you want to move forward or to even take a chance at love. You win some and you lose some that's life. But to me you don't lose. You learn from every experience even though you don't realize it yet. There will be times where you have to press pause during your love life to evaluate who you are and who you want to be with. That's understandable because it is needed. It's about taking risks with the "right" person. Who is the right person for you? Only you and God know. Nobody can tell you who you should be with or force you to love someone. That's not love at all. It might take some of us to find that right person but eventually you will.

Love is a beautiful thing and I am not ashamed to admit it. The key to real love is being friends. Having that friend who has always been there for you through it all. The one who can just listens to your problems without even judging you and the one that really cares about you emotionally and mentally. My father told me the one who "YOU" know will have your back regardless is a keeper and I understand that now. There's something in your heart that will tell you who's right for you but never rush it. Take all the time you need to understand yourself first then understand them. Over the past few years I have gained friends and now they are started to fade. I know who my real friends are and I know there not going anywhere. I believe love is out there for everyone to feel and enjoy with somebody. Live, Love, and Laugh are the three things you should do everyday in your life. There are no rules to this Game of Love so play it your own way but with your heart.

Closing the Book

There's one book I've read over and over again

That book called "LOVE"

I've been stuck on this book for so long that it's hard to finish reading

So many chapters about trust, honestly and commitment has me at a halt

Trying to understand the meaning of love

It's not that easy

Day by day I read a chapter

Turning every page acting as if I understand what it meant

But I don't

Forcing myself to deal with the things in life

Trying to compare the books meaning and my own meaning didn't mix

I had hoped things would change for the better

But it did kind of in way

Times when I did things the book told me to do didn't work

Realizing making sacrifices is needed for love

This book taught me a lot about things what to do and what not to do

As I approached the last few pages

I sat there and wondered thinking to myself

That this book isn't for me to follow

Create my own path of love that would make me feel appreciated for the rest of your life

It's never to late to fully understand somethings

Making my life more clearer and more pleasant 

I have to follow my own heart and intuition 

I'm finally closing this book of love

Surprisingly

It had an happy ending

The Blues

The sweet melody from your love
Play's every time I'm with you
My love for you isn't going no where
I hate not feel you when your not even here
But I can feel it from your blues
Your blue's can make a smile deaf man smile
My heart matches your heart's rhythm with your blue's
I will never understand the way you can make me feel
All I know is that your blues pick's me up when they tried to put me down
To hear and feel your blues is a blessing
Only true love can hear it play
I can't fake this feeling
The way your blues make me feel is beyond anything in this world
Don't even stop the music baby
I can put your blues on repeat for the rest of my life
Living is much more meaningful with your blues
There's not much I can say bad about your blues
Playing in my heart daily
Not every skipping a beat
No instrument can play your blues
Only your love
Just like the blue sky's
Rain nor pain can keep me from loving your blues
So baby keep on playing your music
Cause all I need is your blues